The good, the bad & the scary!

Ok, without going into details...
Friday night into Saturday morning, I was afraid that I was miscarrying the baby. No severe symptoms, just enough to scare the snot out of you, y'know? So, anyway...I've taken it easy since and by Saturday afternoon all the symptoms had pretty much all gone away. I knew I had my OB appointment with my midwife on Monday (yesterday) so I called her Saturday morning to give her a heads up. She basically told me to watch it and take it easy and if anything worsens to call her or go to the ER. This all came after talking to Jana on Friday afternoon and saying that God had given me such a peace over the last 4-5 weeks that I wasn't going to miscarry and that things were going to be just fine. Because early on I really had a lot of fears and misgivings about the whole thing. Then this all happened Friday night. At 2am, I cried my eyes out and Superhubby prayed with me to calm down and for everything to be okay. It calmed me enough to stop crying, but I didn't get hardly any sleep that night.
So.....yesterday I had my midwife appointment at 1:15. Superhubby went along because we dropped our insurance and we had to set up a payment plan with the Dr. office. My midwife decided that after all the craziness of the weekend, we probably had better use the Doppler to hear the heartbeat just to make sure all was going okay. I agreed to it, even though I really didn't want to use the Doppler, because I wanted to make sure that the baby was alive and well. She asked me if I wanted to do an ultrasound, but I declined because hearing the heartbeat was enough to convince me. I do have to say though, that it was the neatest thing! When she found the baby and was pushing on my belly where he/she was, I could feel the "knot" that was the baby in my belly! It felt like it was about the size of an apricot or a plum. We heard my heartbeat right away, but then when she found the baby, you could hear the baby's heartbeat behind mine. Mine was much slower, then you could hear a faster little baby heartbeat in the background, she said about 150 beats per minute. It made us smile! THERE REALLY IS A BABY IN THERE!!! I can't wait until I can feel it moving around! I've fallen in love with a little baby inside me, what a different kind of love...what a new feeling altogether! So...SO...Amazing!

12 weeks and counting & a soapbox ranting

Ok, today marks the beginning of the 12th week...aka...end of first trimester!!! I don't know how many people wait until the end of this 12th week to tell anyone that they're expecting!! I think I would've died if I had to wait that long! I have my next Midwife appointment on Monday of this coming week. Not really looking forward to it, but it's somethin' I gotta do.
Next week also marks the beginning of the County Fair. Can I just tell you that I'm really dreading it? You see...our church parks cars in the afternoons/evenings for a huge fundraiser that we do every year. This year, the County Fair falls on the same week as Family Camp for our church at 'the lake'. Therefore...many will duck out of the fair job using Family Camp as an excuse and not even go...or the usual...some will use the fair job to get into the fair and not even do the fair job. Y'know, I'm pregnant and really not wanting to stand on my feet for HOURS ON END...and I know of a few others that are even more pregnant than I am, and they're going to be there. I know one said she's taking her chair and they'll probably put her at the end of an aisle to block the way. I don't know if I'll be able to be as mobile as I usually am. AND Superhubby may not be able to work as much as he usually does because Big Bank is requiring some overtime that week. Gee...does that figure or what?!? He even has to work some on Sunday! That's just rediculous!!!

You know what? I really have something eating at my crawl...I have a problem with "Apostolic/Pentecostals" trying to buck the system, so to speak. If you don't believe what the church teaches, then why do you even come? You've been coming for years...and years...and years and complain the whole way about our standards on clothing, movies, music...our doctrine on baptism and the Holy Ghost and salvation. If you have a problem with these things, maybe you should sincerely pray that God shows you the truth instead of not having a very spiritual relationship with God outside of the church building and talking bad about people and the way they are trying to uphold the basic foundation of THE CHURCH. Obviously your heart isn't in the right place if that's what you're complaining about...Y'know what? If we're wrong, I have NO COMPLAINTS, but if you're wrong, you'll have an eternity of complaints now won't you?
There...that feels better. Maybe we can just chalk this up to pregnancy hormones gone wild...or...maybe not.

Ok, so I'm a looo-hoooo-ser!

I feel like I've not posted in soooo long! Oh, wait...I haven't! I got sick last week...still coughing and junk like that, but feeling much better than I did on Thursday and Friday! That's basically all I've been up to since then. Cough...sneeze...blow the nose...repeat.

I didn't get a chance until now to say HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SWEETHEART!!!! Sunday (12th) was our anniversary. We've been married for 6 whole years! It's crazy how it really doesn't seem that long, but I can't really truly remember life without him! I love you Baby!

I also didn't say last Wednesday (8th) when I posted Happy Birthday Tiff! We miss you and love you so much! See you on the flip side!

This pregnancy thing with all the fatigue and forgetfulness is killing me! I have forgotten to do so many things in the last few weeks...I'm starting to make myself little notes and put them where I'll remember them. Can I tell you...it still doesn't seem real? I'm now in week 11 (according to what my dates say) and I'm almost out of the first trimester! I don't think it'll really seem real until I start feeling the baby move. I don't want to use a Doppler to listen to the baby's heartbeat because it's just a strong ultrasound machine. And I've already talked about my feelings on ultrasounds. So, I want to use a fetoscope (fetal stethoscope), but my midwife says that I'll have to supply my own because they don't own one! So, I've got to see if I can hunt one down. Maybe if I hear the heartbeat it'll seem real, but they also say that sometimes you can't hear the heartbeat with a fetoscope until week 16-18. So, I don't know...

I've got to say to the Muffin: I knew you'd pull through it! Once you got into the swing of things, you'd get your mind off of being homesick and really see the newness of it all. Keep pushin' for your goals, it'll all pass by so quickly and you won't want to leave when the time comes. Love ya girl!

Ok, my list of things to do today:
1) Get off here so I can get my list done.
2) Weed the watermelon plants in the garden. They need it badly if we're going to want melons!
3) Take a package to the B-burg post office.
4) Empty and fill the dishwasher
5) Strip and re-make the bed.
6) Get some laundry done!
7) Try...do try to straighten up the living room today.
If I get all of these things done today, it'll be more than I've been able to accomplish in the last couple weeks altogether! Between the sickness that I currently have and the fatigue that pregnancy has gotten me down to take a nap (long nap) in the middle of the day every day, I've really been a horrible housewife. I'm sorry Superhubby! You've been so understanding. I love you!

Don't worry, I've been a slacker otherwise too!

Yeah, pretty much hating this HUGE fatigue thing that goes along with pregnancy. Not only have I slacked in blogging, but the reason for that is because I've slacked in everything else too! There's really nothing to blog about because of the slackiness of my life this last week. And yesterday I literally laid around the house all day until Superhubby came home because I had a monstrous headache and my stomach was following the pattern. It seemed that anything I ate yesterday upset my tum tum, with the exception of a small baked potato with butter, cheddar and salt on it. I think my bod has been trying to fight off the cold that Superhubby has had for the last week because I've occasionally sneezed. Well, Superhubby's cold started with a large headache and last night before I went to bed, a sore throat. YUCK!!!! I can feel my sinuses draining. So, I'm going to attack it full force. Not only am I taking my prenatal vitamins, but I'm going to take a bunch of Vit. C and drink tea--herbal tea that includes things good for the immune system: elderberry, echinacea, hibiscus flowers, rosehips, green tea, stinging nettle, red clover. It's steeping as I type. So, hopefully it won't go full force on me and I can just kill it where it lays.
I just got on facebook and it's amazing the people that come out of the woodwork when you sign up! I already have 35 friends and I just signed up last Thursday! I really wasn't planning on doing much, but people found me, so I guess I'll try to stick with it. I'm still trying to figure the thing out. Do you just comment on people's comments or what? I feel like there should be more, but I've not found it yet. Ok, well...gonna play on facebook a few more minutes, then get to my tea and vitamins. Bye y'all!